Title:I am just a girl !!

I am just a girl. To most of the people I am a quiet girl I don’t talk much your can hardly see me talk but this is all during class time. I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO TYPE!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stress sorry Miss Ang I wanted to type but I am afraid that other people will see should journal be a secret?? I would rather write it inside a book. As not all people can see what have been written unless we lent them but Blogger is anytime people can see. Sorry this is just a comment you might not have seen but hope you does I will still post the hw you give on blog.

hamtaro with my hundred plus...




my bears any book muhaha...lol




pick-a-boo!!


from thomas blog xp... gtg ler buaiix...orh one more pic...

=)

in the bus with ling i got nth better to do hahaz...



also in bus ling seashell...











in the seashell shop...muhahaz.....


29july06

one year half month never see my other sis liao finally todae can see her xp...
morning go sku... listen to the talk that a good time to sleep muahaha.................................talking in progress..................................finally end!! then actually wanna go play bad de but hong sae wan afternoon then dun wan ler.... thinking where shuld i go hahaz call my 24hr sis go out lol....ling sae one plus meet bah... okiez!! then go grand house use comp a while then sis sae she wan buy seashell for the art then me ask uncle where can buy seashell?? reply" orh!! euu go sentosa can liao F.O.C de..." LOL.... then sis sae meet eariler okiez lo...12:30 meet... kkz jump too long liao erm meet le go bishan....then sis wan go find her frenz working in KFC then go buy chocolate dotz i can't belive i brought chocolate for $320 haha oppz typo $3.20 xp actually ish perpusly de hahaz brought three fravour ehh i onli remember one name lol 1:hazel milk chocolate 2:coffee favour(i hate this favour after i eat it) 3:erm okiez confirm forgot liao(but ish the one i lik most) lol...then go forth floor ask got sell seashell gosh dun haf!!... then decided to go sengkang as shane sae wenj help him buy before at compasspoint...hahaz since we are going there can meet sherlyn...yay!! then we took the MRT dotz very long man!! hahaz luckily got ling MP3...xp then after reach sengkang call sherlyn come meet us...then we go buy seashell hahaz above pic ish taken in the shop....then go minitoon saw the hp chain we brought the same one then go ehh i forgot the shope name liao ehh sher wan buy magazine and vege...then wan go sher house on the way out of the compasspoint ehh was it ling??or sher?? went in to the shop then suggested on the neckles hahaz...and the go sher house transfer the chain to the neckles...then we take pic unfortunately i did't took it with my hp that whye dun haf our pic...then abt 5+ sher sent us to the bus stop...me and sis took 159 to amk... then go buy sushi go underblock then we went home... after i reach home got good news hahaz dad finally brought bluetooth and thumbdrive that whye me can upload pic xp...ehh gotta end this post goodmorning argg actually can end earlier de i accidently delected some of it shuld haf ended at 1:15 but now 1:20 lol....kkz =) morning...every one*...

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HAHAZ!!how's the animate?? funni?? lol i got nth better to do...

what think gose into ur mind when ur see this picture??

TOuching??
it was also posted in my msn space..=)




I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him.

And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…

"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.
"I can’t"
"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me.
"No… I am going to meet a friend…"

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word 'love' only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say 'I love you' before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all. He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days… 200 days… Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why.
Then one day…

Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What? Don’t drag, just say.
Me: I love you.
Jin: You… Um, just take this doll and go home.

That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… Lunch passed, dinner passed… And soon the sky was dark, he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2 a.m. in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Jin…
Jin: Here… Take this.
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. Then I shouted… "Wait…"
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me

I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
"I don’t want to say that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb and I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily. How could he? I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me.
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… Everyday.
After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that I saw him on a street with another girl. He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me as he touched the doll. I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell. Why did he gave these to me. Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls. In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that it’s going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were mad, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual.
Me: I don’t need it.
Jin: What? Why?
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore! I don’t want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
"I’m sorry". He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll.
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then…
Honk! Honk!
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted. But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
"Jin, move!" HONK! "Boom!" That sound, so terrifying.

That’s how he went away from me. That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him. And after spending two months like a crazy person I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days when we were in love.

"One… Two… Three…" That was how I started to count the dolls.
"Four hundred and eighty four… Four hundred and eighty five…" It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you, I love you" I dropped the dolls, shocked.
"I love you?" I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you. I love you". It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you"
"I love you"
"I love you"
Those words came out non-stop. I love you. Why didn’t I realize that. That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much… I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much.
"Jo… Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you. Um… Since I was too shy. If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you everyday till I die. Jo… I love you…"

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute.

For that and for that reason to me it became courage to live a beautiful life.

clusmy morning hahaz...morning 5am woke up myself normally ish alarm ring then wake up de but todae diffrent lol hahaz dun wanna wake up actaully so lay on bed trying to get to sleep again lol impossible actually hahaz then wait until 530 alarm ring still dun wanna get out of my bed see i love my bed so much lolz jkjk me waiting for mum to scold hahaz.... finally she come in hahaz...7am then walk out of the house lolx then 719+ i dunno reach sku walk in OM call me ask me wad class lolx i thought i late haaha then he sae take the newspaper to 2e2 lol..then me carried the newspaper mummy help very heavy lolx...while going into hall nearly fell down lol...then while standing up and read the newspaper...newspaper nearly drop hahaz... lolz...then go back class...then ofcoz start class... erm science,CE mr bala talk abt the stolen thingy,recess...me and hong go hall play bat...then go back class geog,chinese,math...ahh math bloody math todae got test actually me never learn hahaz... then math test me finish liao checking ans thinking for the Question 2a think here think there find that i did something wrong but dunno where...lolx then mr bala sae okiez hand up paper dotz i noe where i wrong liao mummy 4mark gone bloody...wanna cry liao sobsob....haiz there ish nth i could do to undo it... haiz mayb other Question i also wrong this time FAIL liao...then after sku follow yumin she wanna eat mah then in canteen saw hong and shaojun hahaz... then go library actually wanna help yumin do blog but then end up go internet search for fone lol... then met some new frenz hahaz chunhui,jiaping and sandra... lol at first keep asking their name hahaz coz forget...erm then folded two swam gif library aunty heehe lol it's on the drawer beside aunty comp heehe... still got name hahaz... lolx sot liao...then abt 420+ go buy sweet ehh currently the sweet left nine soon it will be gone hahaz...then go grandhouse on the way saw cousin hahaz go up together xp... then reach ofcoz switch on the comp heehe... then go find the song firefly... ask susanna send me through msn whee~ heehe...orh ehh must rmb to bring clip tmr for my geog hand lolx...let see three day no hw liao hahaz tmr i think shuld b got bah... guess onli heehe...lolz ehh nth to type le so ++THEEND++

A Mum comes to visit her son Kumar for dinner who lives with a girl roommate Sunita. During the course of the meal, his mother couldn't help but notice how pretty Kumar's, roommate was. She had long been suspicious of a relationship between the two, and this had only made her more curious.
Over the course of the evening, while watching the two interact, she started to wonder if there was more between Kumar and his roommate than met the eye. Reading his mum's thoughts, Kumar volunteered, "I know what you must be thinking, but I assure you, Sunita and I are just roommates.

" About a week later, Sunita came to Kumar saying, Ever since your mother came to dinner, I've been unable to find the silver curry plate container. You don't suppose she took it, do you?" Kumar said,"Well, I doubt it, but I'll email her, just to be sure."


So he sat down and wrote :
Dear Mother: I'm not saying that you 'did' take the silver curry plate container from my house neither I'm not saying that you 'did not' take but the fact remains that it has been missing ever since you were here for dinner.
Love, Kumar


Several days later, Kumar received an email from his Mother which read

Dear Son: I'm not saying that you 'do' sleep with Sunita neither I'm not saying that you 'do not' sleep with Sunita. But the fact remains that if she was sleeping in her OWN bed, she would have found the silver curry plate container by now that's placed under her pillow...
Love, Mom.

from:a e-mail of my

>>Message: Daniel and Jasmine are sitting alone in the park one
>>night....
>> >
>> >Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world
>> >
>> >Jasmine: I think so... All of my friends have boyfriends and we
>>are only
>> >the 2 persons left in this world without any special person in
>>our lives
>> >
>>
>Daniel: Yup I don't know what to do
>> >
>> >Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game
>> >
>> >Daniel: What game?
>> >
>> >Jasmine: i'll be your girl friend for 30 days and you will be my
>>boy friend
>> >
>> >Daniel: That's a great plan in fact i don't anything to do for
>>the
>> >following weeks...
>> >
>> >DAY 1:
>> >
>> >They watch their first movie and they both touched in a romantic
>>film
>> >
>> >DAY 4:
>> >
>> >They went to the beach and have a picnic...Daniel and Jasmine
>>have their
>> >quality time together
>> >
>> >DAY 12:
>> >
>> >Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they
ride on a Horror
>> >House....Jasmine was scared and she touched Daniel's hand but she
>>touched
>> >someone else's hand and they both laughed...
>> >
>> >DAY 15:
>> >
>> >They saw a fortune teller down the road and they asked for their
>>future
>> >advice and the fortune teller said: "My darling, Please don't
>>waste the
>> >time of your life... SPend the rest of your time together
>>happily" Then
>> >tears flow out from the teller's eyes
>> >
>> >DAY 20:
>> >
>> >Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a
>>meteor...Jasmine
>> >mumbled something
>> >
>> >DAY 28:
>> >
>> >They sat on the bus and because of a
bumby road Jasmine gave her
>>first kiss
>> >to Daniel by accident
>> >
>> >DAY 29:
>> >
>> >11:37pm
>> >
>> >Jasmine and Daniel sat in the park where they first decided to
>>play this
>> >game...
>> >
>> >Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine...Do you want any drinks? I'll buy you
>>one.. I'll
>> >just go down the road
>> >
>> >Jasmine: Apple Juice that's all
>> >
>> >Daniel: Wait for me....
>> >
>> >20mins later... a stranger approached Jasmine
>> >
>> >Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?
>> >
>> >Jasmine: Why yes? What happened?
>> >
>> >Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel and
he is
>>critical in
>> >the hospital
>> >
>> >11:57pm
>> >
>> >The doctor went out of the emergency room and he handed out an
>>apple juice
>> >and a letter
>> >
>> >Doctor: We found this in daniel's pocket
>> >
>> >Jasmine reads the letter and it says:
>> >
>> >Jasmine, This past few days, i realized you are a really cute
>>girl and i am
>> >really falling for you..Your cherish smile your everything when
>>we played
>> >this game..... Before this game would end...I would like you to
>>be my girl
>> >friend for the rest of my life.... I love you Jasmine....
>> >
>> >Jasmine crumples the paper and shouted:
>> >
>>
>"Daniel i don't want you to die... I love you...Remember that
>>night when we
>> >saw a meteor, I mumbled something... I mumbled that I wish we
>>would be
>> >together forever and never end this game. Please don't leave me
>>Daniel....
>> >I love you! You cannot do this to me!"
>> >
>> >Then the clock strikes 12
>> >
>> >Daniel's heart stop pumping
>> >
>> >THEN IT WAS THE 30TH DAY........
>> >
>> >*************************************************
>> >
>> >Always love your loved ones and show them how you feel before it
>>is too
>> >late... You will never know when they will be gone from your
>>embrace... If
>> >you were given a time to bestow petals of
everlasting compassion
>>and love
>> >to your loved ones? Today is the day.... Love them while they are
>>still
>> >here...




by:a e-mail of my ___ =)

Too Busy for a Friend...???
One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of e other
students in e room on 2 sheets of paper, leaving a space between
each name.
Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say
about
each of their classmates and write it down.
It took the remainder of the class period to finish their
assignment,
and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.
That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on
a separate sheet of paper,
and listed what everyone else had said about that individual.
On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the
entire class was
smiling.
"Really?" she heard whispered.
"I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!" and,
"I didn't know others liked me so much." were most of the
comments.
No one ever mentioned those papers in class again.
She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their
parents, but it didn't matter.
The exercise had accomplished its purpose.
The students were happy with themselves and one
another.
That group of students moved on.
Several years later, one of the students was killed in Vietnam and
his teacher
attended the funeral of that special student.
She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before.
He looked so handsome, so mature.
The church was packed with his friends.
One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the
coffin.
The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.
As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer
came up to her.
"Were you Mark's math teacher?" he asked. She nodded:
"yes." Then he said: "Mark talked about you a lot."
After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together
to a luncheon.
Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak
with his teacher.
"We want to show you something," his father said, taking a wallet
out of his pocket.
"They found this on Mark when he was killed.
We thought you might recognize it."
Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of
notebook
paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many
times.
The teacher knew without looking that
the papers were the ones on
which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates
had said about him.
"Thank you so much for doing that," Mark's mother said.
"As you can see, Mark treasured it."
All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around.
Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, "I still have my list.
It's in the top drawer of my desk at home."
Chuck's wife said,
"Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding
album."
"I have mine too," Marilyn said. "It's in my diary."
Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her pocketbook, took
out
her wallet and showed her worn and frazzled list to the group.
"I carry this with me at all times," Vicki said and without
batting an eyelash,
she continued: "I think we all saved our
lists."
That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried.
She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him
again.
The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that
life will end one day.
And we don't know when that one day will be.
So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are
special and important.
Tell
them, before it is too late. =)_


by:a e-mail of my __ =)

todae very early go sku lol 635+ reach liao coz bro nid to go skipping compition yeah!! gd luck to him...then reach sku saw theresa... but did mdm yick come our class todae in the morning??cozz mii haven pass up the zhou ji lol i was too concentrating on reading the harry potter... ZZzzz...erm then go back class.. bla bla bla teacher teaching...go recess.. okiez jump to eng class coz other lesson nth sae... erm then while teacher was asking us to read the dunno wad spirit de lol me rush through then sleep... lol coz it's BORRING and TIRE....how i wish ms chua will come back and teach =)) lol...then history class got wad puzzel game find until blur blur lol... then after sku got dance... me and elaine go general office take key but nid wait for ms/mrs?? dunno wad...but i noe ish a female teacher kekex...then me accompany elaine go canteen coz she wan eat... then yihong come gif me apple tea then me sae thz hor gif me all then me go help elaine buy green tea...hahaz dun wanna gif hong back her apple tea xp....then me ask liping leh?? coz they nid do our chinese project... she sae concil meeting lol then me tell elaine i go with hong do the project first...help me tell teacher... erm then before we go yihong go kick elaine then elaine kick her back lol hong sae very pain then me tell her i kick one more time not pain liao lol jkjk onli xp... me and hong go liabrary but lol all comp got ppl then me dun feel lik going to the dance first so stay at library for a while... after a while liping come liao lol she sae something made me remember my zhou ji haven pass up me run up 4th floor to take coz my bag in AVA rm... then go library susanna sae they not there liao then me think they go comp lab dotz haahz they realli there... ask then help me gif the book to yick...then run back to 4th floor again...dotz then elaine remind me her green tea ish outside the library again dotz i run down to first floor again take the green tea go up again... lol.... exercise dae for me....then do warm up 3+ teacher come.... lol todae dance ish sot de keep laughing haha so fun and cher also got teach new step but weird weird de xp....then erm then cher call us pratice ourselve first lol we go dance the last year dance DO SOMETHING haha... xp...erm cher continue teaching the other step... at abt 1745 cher sae can go home ler yay... lol me and elaine stay in sku for a while then go 467 buy water...then go grand home walk up the stair xp... lol stair again... dotz dotz dotz...reach home ask bro got win??lol sad news his two catergary lose... dotz...ber... still got eng hw haven do... and todae do so many exercise/dance hahaz..lol...tiring dae xp.... laala erm erm erm nth to type liao....